Monday, January 26, 2015

A Letter to my Mom

Dear Mom,

I feel so lucky that God chose you to be my Mom. You are an incredible mother and one I strive to be just like for my daughter and future son. You have showed me love my entire life through your words and actions. You have supported me through my roughest times and given me strength when I needed it the most. You always encouraged me, always believed in me, and you were always there for me. I truly am blessed to be your daughter. 

I have not been the best child.  I made some decisions that I will regret always. Ones that I pray my children will never make. I remember so many of the mistakes I have made and it brings tears to my eyes. I am sorry for hurting you. I am sorry for scaring you. I am sorry for putting my life in danger.

Middle school was the bumpiest for you and me. Remember the time I called you a Bitch while running out the front door? Ouch. That one stings. Or that time I ran away from home and you didn't know where I was? That was a stupid one. What about failing Geometry, skipping so much school that I failed a class, getting a tattoo with a fake ID, sneaking a boy in my window, and a couple other mishaps I don't even want to mention Yeah, I have put you through a lot.

You said something to me many times growing up. It was "you just wait until you have a child." I would know what you went through. Well, I have a child. She is innocent and hasn't made any of these bad choices. Yet, I feel the pain I have caused you.

I don't want to end this letter with all the times I have had lapses of judgments. We had good times too. I can remember going to work with you at that tobacco warehouse. I had fun there. I will never forget that week it snowed sixteen plus inches in high school, and my friends were snowed in. That was awesome. We had some fun shopping trips together. I miss those! Can you believe I made straight A's that one time in twelfth grade? I was so proud of that report card and of getting accepted to North Carolina State University for college, but I was even happier to see how proud you were of me.

You are my best friend. I have always been able to tell you anything and everything. You have made it easy to approach you in my most difficult times. I can't say thank you enough for your patience and your ability to forgive my life errors. I love you so much, and I think I finally understand your depth of love for me.

With all my love,
Your daughter

1 comment:

  1. You are also my best friend! I love you unconditionally as you do Mila. I am so proud of the woman you have become - the bumps along the way make us who we are. As long as our hearts are open to letting the Lord direct our path in life (depend on his love, strength and support) we will be able to get through the tough times that come our way and enjoy the blessed ones all that much more. Love you bunches!